Saturday, July 25, 2009

Getting Nasty

Things seem to be taking a nasty turn with my husband. I feel really worn out physically and emotionally. My mom took the kids so I could sleep this morning and he kept calling and texting me. He's becoming very demanding and making a lot of accusations.

I keep telling him that he needs to do what the AA leader told him to do and start keeping his word to me. He just doesn't seem to get that. He thinks if he just keeps pushing me harder and harder, I will just give in. And we are not at that point. I don't know that that would work for anyone, at any point.

I told him this morning that I felt like he had a stronghold around my neck. He took offense to that and said he was just going to let me go. I reminded him that he was acting like his dad, and he should know how that feels. It doesn't feel good. It feels so constricting.

I told him I need some space this weekend. My mom is going to keep the kids a bit longer and let me breathe. I just feel so tired.

I don't know how we got to this place where we are just so terrible to each other. I thought a separation would help, but it just seems like things are worse.


  1. I am so sorry you are going thru this.. Every day seems to be a battle with him and then one day out of the blue he'll be decent and then right back to his angry self.. I know that emotional roller coaster and it is so draining.. I saw in your earlier post that your Mom took the kids for the whole weekend. How awesome was that? =) Aside from his texting.. It's really too bad you can't just shut the phone off but with kids you really can't.. I so, so hope that one day you are free to be wherever, however, whoever, you choose! YOU deserve it!

    I have to share with you that I moved to a place that is so you! =) Yachts and beautiful people everywhere! BUT, I didn't see one beautiful lady in an awesome red hat! =)

    Be free Sula, even if it's just for a moment..

  2. I was wondering where you are and what you have been up to! :) Thanks for all your comments - you rock!