Insanity

My husband called me upset today because he has been reading the blog again.

I don't know how many times he will tell me he will stop reading it, only to read it again.

It doesn't really bother me any more, aside from the integrity aspect. How can I trust a man with my children when he seems to be incapable of keeping his word on basic things?

I told him he should start his own blog if he wants to tell his side of the story.

Last night, one of his "friends" from Betty Ford contacted me and said he needed to talk to me about my husband. I am really tired of all the drama.

I told my husband, never in our marriage has someone contacted you about anything that I have done. It just made me feel dirty.

I am really sick of addicts in general and ended up telling the guy off. Leave it to an addict to only think about himself and not worry about his "friends" wife and children.

I don't know what he wants to talk to me about and I don't care anymore. My heart was racing a million miles an hour last night wondering what else was next.

I finally realized, it doesn't matter. It has nothing to do with me anymore.

Tonight my husband called me again and I really couldn't tell what he was getting at so I said, well, have a good night.

He said something about me wanting to get off the phone with him so I said, I don't know what else to say to you.

So he said, how about I love you and I made a huge mistake?!

What??!! Are you serious??!! What mistake did I make?

He said not trying to work things out with me.

So I just said, OK, talk to you tomorrow.

He told me this was "my last chance" and that he wasn't going to ask me again. "If you want to you're going to have to come to me!"