Sleep = A Sound Mind

I slept for nearly 12 hours last night. I started getting a sore throat yesterday and decided to put the kids down early, because my daughter has been cranky too. I think the sleep did us all some good.

I had a lot of dreams and I am still digesting them. I have not been rested for a long time. My sleep hasn't been what it should be, and it is amazing what a difference even one night of sound sleep can make.

I still have a sore throat, but my mind feels clearer.

Louise Hay says a sore throat comes from the inability to speak up for one's self. Swallowed anger. Stifled creativity. Refusal to change.

Yep, that sounds like me!

I realized this morning that I have been wasting so much energy on fighting my husband. I have thought that fighting on my phone via texting was better because the kids couldn't hear it, but it still gets my blood pressure up. And there is never any resolution. And those hours I am texting could be spent with my kids. I am always shocked when people take their kids somewhere and just sit there and text. So I hope I haven't let my anger take me to that level at home, even when there are empty spaces. If nothing else, they will pick up on my energy.

I am so disappointed with my husband and his family. But I have placed way to much emphasis on them in my life. Expecting them to change. And none of them have any intention of changing. They think they are just fine the way they are.

So I have to learn to let go...

Time to face the Day

I did not sleep last night.

I woke up too early and my mind was racing just like all the hours before that I was trying to sleep.

I got up to go to the bathroom and then tried to lay back down and meditate. But I am just too upset.

Everything is spinning through my mind now. The relief wore off quickly and now I feel now is pain and fear.

I'm having coffee with all the moms from school in a few hours and I don't know how I'm going to make it. But it is the kids last day so I want to make sure it is special for them.

Decisions

I really feel a lot of push and pull.

I feel conflicted about almost everything right now.

I didn't sleep much last night. Probably not helping me much this morning.

I am thinking about resigning from my job this morning. Some things have happened that I just don't feel are right.

I'm also just tired of spinning my wheels there.

On the other hand, I don't have another job, and the kids and I are already struggling financially.

But somehow I feel like it is time for me to go.