When I Was Born

When I was born
When I was born I was not a child
I was a dream, a dream of revolt
that my mother, oppressed for thousands of years,
dreamt.
Still it is untouched in my eyes
Covered with wrinkles of thousand years, her face
her eyes, two lakes overflowing with tears
have watered my body
I remember she went for water at your well
a mile away scorched by the summer sun
breathless she returned home and what she offered me,
was not water
but her sweat.
You taught her respect:
‘brother, sir, father, mother, we are your children, let us live, father”
I remember
You allowed her not near the village well
You allowed her not near the village hall
You allowed her not near the letters
In the marshland of your cunningness
You trapped my mother and she struggled.
In your empire so violent
every moment my mother was slaughtered.
She will now breathe in a free air
Her body scorched by sun will get cool shade of neem
Your well will wash her feet and
Your village office will be her throne.
Your letters will become her weapons
Look, I am the lord of Saraswati who was thus far yours and yours alone.
I am the lord of Lakshmi who was thus far yours and yours only
My daughter pulls ears of Ganpati considering him an animal
I do not decorate her eyes with lampblack, but with defiance.
Now they will burn and burn
Your flats and tenements, your schools and your offices
Your chains and your police stations, your village offices and your temples.
I am the live coal , the coal that burns
In the hut that you set ablaze.
I have some wind of the freedom
Now I am the fire.
I remember
When I was born I was not a child
I was a dream,
A dream of revolt
That my mother ,
Oppressed for thousands of years dreamt.
G K Vankar's translation of Sahil Parmar's Gujarati poem "When I was born" from his poetry collection Mathaman.

"Women have to understand that regardless of who does not want us we have to want ourselves. Self-love is the first and hardest rule to stick by. Women need to not abandon themselves in their quest for bliss and love. You can love yourself spiritually, physically, in almost any way anybody else can."

-Alice Walker

The Longing

Freedom.
How her spirit
Haunts,
Hooks,
Entices us all!

Freedom,
Will the time come
For my ideas to roam
Across this vast land’s deserts,
Through the caverns of the Empty Quarter?

For my voice to be sent forth,
Crying out in the stillness of a quiet people,
A voice among the voiceless?

For my thoughts, that hurl around
In a never-ending spiral,
To settle
Mature, grow and flourish
In a barren wasteland of shackled minds?
Will my spirit be set free—
To soar above the undulating palm fronds?
Will my essence and heart be unfettered,
Forever
Freed,
Of man-made Thou Shall Nots?

-Nimah Ismail Nawwab

"Remember the distance or color does not matter but love matters a lot in life."

- The Little Prince

Woman of Purpose

Hello My Sister
You are a Woman of Purpose
You need not roar as the world
You are anointed
Your voice is soft and non-threatening

Your words are kind yet firm
You are anointed
Your heart is full of love and wisdom
Your destiny is sure
You are anointed
Your hands extend across continents
Your actions and decisions influence multitudes
You are anointed
Yet your soul only belongs to …One

God Almighty
She anoints you
God alone holds the strings to which you dance
live…move…and have your very being
She empowers you

Therefore go! Change the world
Fulfill the purpose for which you were created
You are Anointed with Power!

God has a purpose for your life. Even if you are far away
from being what She has called you to be, you are still important to Her.

Please know and remember you matter, you count, you are valuable and loved.

Written by: Nikki

"I long, as does every human being, to be at home wherever I find myself."

-Maya Angelou

Ready For Love

Death and Resurrection

Yards and yards
Of heavy black serge
Covered every inch of me
Save face and hands
Not a curve
Not a limb
Not a hint
Of my beautiful
Woman-body
Could be seen.

No wind
Could blow through my hair
Swirl my skirts
Playfully
Around my thighs.
Warm moist earth
Never ticked
My firmly-shod feet.
Thus was I bound
Bride of Christ.
For twenty-five youthful years,
The male magisterium
Male theologians
Male spiritual directors
Properly dressed
My body
And my soul.

Then God the Mother
Released me
I
Sensual woman
Earthy woman
Beautiful woman
Am good.

-Marcelline Niemann

Who Said It Was Simple

There are so many roots to the tree of anger
that sometimes the branches shatter
before they bear.

Sitting in Nedicks
the women rally before they march
discussing the problematic girls
they hire to make them free.
An almost white counterman passes
a waiting brother to serve them first
and the ladies neither notice nor reject
the slighter pleasures of their slavery.

But I who am bound by my mirror
as well as my bed
see causes in color
as well as sex
and sit here wondering
which me will survive
all these liberations.

-Audre Lorde

Namaste

One version of this verse (the 49th of the Tae Te Ching) says: "I trust men of their word, and I trust liars. If I am true enough, I feel the heartbeats of others above my own." Whether you call it "judging" or "labeling," notice when you think of others as evil, lazy, dishonest, stupid or ugly. Then affirm: I see myself in this person, and I choose to be in a space of goodness rather than judgment. There's a Sanskrit word, Namaste, that can help you with this. When used as a greeting, it roughly translates to: "I honor the place in you where we are all one." So silently or verbally begin telling others "Namaste" in order to remind yourself to love everyone as your own children.

Dr. Wayne Dyer, Change your Thoughts - Change your Life: Living the Wisdome of the Tao (241)

The Sage

The sage has no fixed mind;
she is aware of the needs of others.

Those who are good she treats with goodness.
Those who are bad she also treats with goodness
because the nature of her being is good.

She is kind to the kind.
She is also kind to the unkind
because teh nature of her being is kindess.

She is faithful to the faithful;
she is also faithful to the unfaithful.
The sage lives in harmony with all below heaven.
She sees everything as her own self;
she loves everyone as her own child.

All people are drawn to her.
She behaves like a little child.

- Tao Te Ching, 49th verse

Love

"Love is blind. Friendship closes it's eyes."

-Helen Keller

Goddess Religion

"Goddess religion was earth-centered, not heaven-centered, of this world, not other worldly, body affirming not body-denying, holistic not dualistic. The Goddess was immanent, within every human being, not transcendent, and humanity was viewed as part of nature, death as a part of life. Her worship was sensual, celebrating the erotic, embracing all that was alive. The religious quest was above all for renewal, for the regeneration of life, and the Goddess was the life force."

- Patricia Lynn Reilly, Be Full of Yourself, (52)

"Now I walk with my head in the stars
to keep my tears from falling."

-Grande Ecole

Friendship after Love

"Love
is possible after friendship
but
friendship is not possible after love
because
medicines work before death
later nothing can be cured…."

- The Little Prince

My Short Skirt

My short skirt
is not an invitation
a provocation
an indication
that I want it
or give it
or that I hook

My short skirt
is not begging for it
it does not want you
to rip it off me
or pull it down.

My short skirt
is not a legal reason
for raping me
although it has been before
it will not hold up
in the new court.

My short skirt, believe it or not
has nothing to do with you.
My short skirt
is about discovering
the power of my lower calves
about cool autumn air traveling
up my inner thighs
about allowing everything I see
or pass or feel to live inside.

My short skirt is not proof
that I am stupid
or undecided
or a malleable little girl.
My short skirt is my defiance
I will not let you make me afraid
My short skirt is not showing off
this is who I am
before you made me cover it
or tone it down.
Get used to it.

My short skirt is happiness
I can feel myself on the ground.
I am here. I am hot.
My short skirt is a liberation
flag in the women’s army
I declare these streets, any streets
my vagina’s country.

My short skirt
is turquoise water
with swimming colored fish
a summery festival
in the starry dark
a bird calling
a train arriving in a foreign town
my short skirt is a wild spin
a full breath
a tango dip
my short skirt is
initiation
appreciation
excitation.

But mainly my short skirt
and everything under it is
Mine. Mine. Mine.

-Eve Ensler

Sex

"Why does sex lead to such violence and hypocrisy over matters that are no more than a tempest in a teapot?"

- Exterminating Angels

Twelve Steps for Muslims

1.We admitted that we were neglectful of our higher selves and that our lives have become unmanageable.

2.We came to believe that Allah could and would restore us to sanity.

3.We made a decision to submit our will to the will of Allah.

4.We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves

5.We admitted to Allah and to ourselves the exact nature of our wrongs.

6.Asking Allah for right guidance, we became willing and open for change, ready to have Allah remove our defects of character.

7.We humbly ask Allah to remove our shortcomings.

8.We made a list of persons we have harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.

9.We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

10.We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.

11.We sought through Salaat* and Iqraa* to improve our understanding of Taqwa* and Ihsan.*

12.Having increased our level of Iman (faith) and Taqwa, as a result of applying these steps, we carried this message to humanity and began practicing these principles in all our affairs.

www.millatiislami.org

Recovery for Muslims

What is Millati Islami?

Millati Islami is a fellowship of men and women, joined together on the "Path of Peace". We share our experiences, strengths, and hopes while recovering from our active addiction to mind and mood altering substances.

We look to Allah (G-D) to guide us on Millati Islami (the Path of Peace). While recovering, we strive to become rightly guided Muslims, submitted our will and services to Allah.

Islam tells us clearly that the status of man in this world is that of an "Abd" (servant or 'slave'). We know that we must learn to be slaves and servants only to Allah and not slaves to mind and mood altering chemicals. We must also learn not to be slaves to people, places, things, and emotions.

Allah tells us that man is "Khalifa" (agent or inheritor of the earth). This means that Allah has entrusted us as human beings with custodianship of His creation. Our own bodies, minds and souls truly belong to Allah. They are only entrusted to us for a time. We are changed with their care while we have them in our possession.

Why?

In the Name of Allah The Compassionate, The Merciful

"Whoever recommends and helps a good cause becomes a partner therein; and whoever recommends and helps an evil cause shares in its burden; and Allah has power over all things."

- (Quran 4:85)

We have sought to integrate the treatment requirements of both Al-Islam and the Twelve Step approach to recovery into a simultaneous program. Our personal thanks and appreciation goes to the Narcotics Anonymous and Alcoholics Anonymous programs from which we borrowed. Just as Narcotics Anonymous was founded out of its need to be non-specific with regard to substance, so Millati Islami was born out of our need to be religiously specific with regard to spiritual principles.

Millati Islami, by G-d's will, (masha-Allah) offers a fresh perspective on age old ideas for treating our fallen human conditions. We pray further that it will serve as a model for successfully understanding and addressing the special problems encountered as recovering Muslims and substance abusers in a predominately non-Muslim society.

www.millatiislami.org

"Take what you like. Leave the rest."

-Al-Anon saying